Past, Present and Future

Feeling little weird today. May be because, in 10 days I will be engaged. and in 2 months will be married. I am happy but am sad too. Am scared, very scared of disappointing everyone. My whole life, I have been trying to satisfy everyone, my family, my friends, my loved ones and that's the reason now, am so scared. Scared like hell. I don't want to disappoint anyone, I don't want to get disappointed myself.

Past is past, right? When someone's not affected my past then why on earth am I affected so much? Why am I so sensitive that I can't handle the simple truth? I am tired, really, tired.

For once, I want to be happy. Really happy. How? I don't know... I just want to...